In My Dreams I Hold a Knife

🔪 In My Dreams I Hold a Knife 🔪

Genre: Mystery
Format: 🎧
Pub Date: 8.3.2021
Star Rating: ☆☆☆


Six friends.
One college reunion.
One unsolved murder.

A college reunion turns dark and deadly in this chilling and propulsive suspense novel about six friends, one unsolved murder, and the dark secrets they’ve been hiding from each other—and themselves—for a decade.

Ten years after graduation, Jessica Miller has planned her triumphant return to southern, elite Duquette University, down to the envious whispers that are sure to follow in her wake. Everyone is going to see the girl she wants them to see—confident, beautiful, indifferent—not the girl she was when she left campus, back when Heather’s murder fractured everything, including the tight bond linking the six friends she’d been closest to since freshman year. Ten years ago, everything fell apart, including the dreams she worked for her whole life—and her relationship with the one person she wasn’t supposed to love.

But not everyone is ready to move on. Not everyone left Duquette ten years ago, and not everyone can let Heather’s murder go unsolved. Someone is determined to trap the real killer, to make the guilty pay. When the six friends are reunited, they will be forced to confront what happened that night—and the years’ worth of secrets each of them would do anything to keep hidden.”


“Sometimes, you didn’t have to lift a finger to get exactly what you wanted. Sometimes, all you had to do was sit back and do nothing.”

I was hoping this book would be the one to bring me out of my thriller rut, but it wasn’t for me. I didn’t care for any of the characters – they were all fake, judgmental, immature, and incredibly selfish, making them hard to like.

In My Dreams I Hold a Knife flips between past and present, and, at times, I thought the college-age kids showed more maturity than the grown adults. The character’s behavior was truly atrocious. If I returned to my sorority house and found my college friends behaving this way, I would leave and never look back.

Unfortunately, I called the plot twist(s) from very early on (maybe chapter 2 or 3), and while it was interesting to see how the author brought the reader to that point, I also rolled my eyes more times than I care to admit. I felt like most of the book was the characters standing around revealing awful secrets about one another in hopes of finding the real killer.

Don’t get me wrong, IMDIHK was an easy, quick read (I finished it in one day while deep cleaning my house); it just wasn’t what I thought it would be.

🤔 More of YA mystery vibes
🙅🏽‍♀️ Lots of unlikeable characters
💨 Quick read
🙄 Predictable ending
⏳ Past & Present
👍🏼 Audiobook

As always, this is just my opinion of the book. I have a lot of friends who read and loved In My Dreams I Hold a Knife, and I hope that you add it to your reading list and that you enjoy it! I look forward to reading the next Ashley Winstead book (The Last Housewife) when it publishes in August 2023.

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